Beauty

I have come to the decision that it is time that i no longer hate or think bad of myself or self image. Scrolling through social media, seeing selfies of girls who are absolutely almost perfect, relationship goals, models, etc., has always put such a damper on me. But I have decided that I am…

Vantage Point

Psychiatric hospitals, also known as mental hospitals and mental asylums, are hospitals or wards specializing in the treatment of serious psychiatric illnesses, such as clinical depression, schizophrenia, and bipolar disorder. So what is it like to be in a psych hospital? I was diagnosed with mood disorder, suicide ideation, anxiety, and mild depression. My first day…

Unknown

There are some things in life that happen just by mistake & some that we have a choice over. Unfortunately, some people’s life can just make a turn for the worst.   I don’t really know how I quite want to word things just yet because I still feel myself searching for those lost words….

9/24/16

As it started a normal day and ended a horrific night, the good Lord decided it was time for Kyler Williams to join him in his home. My heart aches for the loss of such an amazing person. He not only shared his love for Christ, but shared everything else he loved in his life….

A girl like her…

A girl like her is a new movie out on Netflix that I watched tonight that I definitely should recommend to anyone. As I have been struggling through depression after my suicide attempt, watching this movie brought emotions I had never thought about before. I cannot express enough how important it is to tell someone…

depression

Depression is not a choice. It is a disease. Nine times out of ten, you know someone who has depression and suffers from something objecting the depression. I have recently realized how many people lead others to believe that depression is “optional”. Depression is a disgusting disease. I would not wish a single person to…

my story

I was in what I thought “love”. Which only ended in constant fighting. It was like a married relationship. Very controlling for our age. But at the time, it felt like the end of my world if I ever lost him. We were going on almost our second year together which was both of our…

first heartbreak

It was a spur of the moment. It wasn’t intended to happen I would fall in love at 14 years old.. I had no clue what it was like. It tore me apart. But once we grew faster as a couple I knew I was hooked. It was intoxicating. I loved you like no other…..

heartbroken

The day you left, my world fell apart. I was at a loss for words. The pain was overwhelming and indescribable. It’s been almost two months now, and I still continue to struggle with the fact you are no longer around. One year of my life was spent with you, and I will never be…

pushing through

Every day is a new day. A new challenge, a new obstacle, a new day to make something better. Every day should be lived as if it was your last. Some days will be harder than others, but that should give you the motive to strive to push through. Things are not going to be…

faith

Psalm 23:4 “Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.” Even through the darkest times, God will always be there for you. You will have days that do not shine like others, but…

Life

Suicide.. it’s not an easy subject to talk about, and its a very touchy subject. I think that if you have not gone through it, your opinion is very irrelevant. People hear this constantly, “Suicide is a cowardly, selfish act”, this is very aggravating considering the things those people are having to deal with, you…